Just keep breathing

It has been a year ago, the operation or that we said goodbye to Arthur. Shortly after I was told it was a malignant tumor, a friend said to me let's name the creature that grows inside you: Arthur. That has helped me so much I was able to approach it a bit more lightly. Because part of the tumor was lasered away, it caused a lot of irritation in my trachea, which meant that I had to cough regularly or had a tickle in my trachea. Because this was all happening in the early days of the Corona outbreak, coughing was something I would rather not do because everyone looked at me immediately. At such a moment I could say to myself or one of the children: "Arthur is being annoying again" or "It's all Arthur's fault." We had to laugh about that instead of letting us feel uncomfortable. One of the first things I wanted to do after my recovery is to stand on top of Arthur's Seat. We have been to Edinburgh twice and both times I was unable to get up Arthur...

I have been dealing with everything that happened in the past year for a few weeks now. That is not always easy because how do you process something like that. And then suddenly something comes your way that helps enormously. In my case a movie: Kiss and cry. When I read the description I had to swallow, it is about a girl with a rare form of throat cancer. Before I dared to take a look, I first looked up some more information. It is based on a true story. Despite the intense subject, I still wanted to see it. The recognizability: the chest tightness, the tumor on the right side of the trachea, the doctor's approach to the bad news conversation (she asks him very positively if everything is okay). This recognizability is also very confronting. After all, I have also been through this. There are also many differences, she was only 17 years old when she got cancer, she had a temporary tracheastoma, the tumor was against her thyroid gland so that they could not operate immediately. Sh...